Many, many years ago… too many to say, I dated a boy named Don. He lived about 200 km away from me in Canada. We talked lots on the phone, wrote letters and saw each other on occasion. I worried about lots! What is he doing when I am not there? Will we last? ….and on and on and on….
Ok, so to make a long story short – we broke up! When we did, he gave me a letter- it was called “I think, you think to much.” I found that letter last year, while cleaning out my rather messy garage. He talked about enjoying ‘us’, our time together and our special memories. Oh and this was all pre. Eckhart Tolle and Self Help sections in bookstores. I admit it! He was right! Still is!
This week, during one of our long visits while eating with my boyfriend, I heard him say the EXACT same words, “Lorraine, I think, you think too much.” (insert a French accent here!) I laughed. But, darn it is so true.
Thinking can be over rated! I can take apart a situation and try it on from every perspective. Do you think that is useful? Maybe!
But, digging deeper– I ask why do it? What do I feel when I worry or think a problem to death? Is it out of fear? Is it because I can’t surrender? HA– see think,think,think!
Someone close to me, once said, if you want to climb the mountain and you are at the base, don’t look to the peak. You must just be with each step, each action. Otherwise, if you focus on the peak- you will go straight back to bed!
How many times have you worried or over thought situations? What is the result? Do you become paralyzed and want to go to bed too? I have to admit- I feel exhausted just thinking about it.
I can only think that I would be able to be a better mother, friend, lover and citizen. All of you who care for me, would feel a sigh of relief to have it stop! 🙂
Imagine how much energy is lost in worry. Can we be gentle, still and trust life a little more? What would this feel like? Imagine putting those exaggerated thoughts down? Liberating isn’t it!
mmm… it is early here- I am going out to just be! Soak in the beauty of the morning sun, feel the wind and give thanks… allowing what comes to come. You know, that FEELS good!
Lorraine Rey 